Janet Jackson: “I Didn’t Feel Attractive”

Janet Jackson opens up about about her brother Michael Jackson’s death and other personal struggles – including poor body image – in an interview with Meredith Vieira set to air on “Today” and “Dateline NBC.”

Jackson describes seeing the late King of Pop for the final time, two days before her birthday, and how their last exchange was a mutual expression of love.

Jackson talks about how she’s only truly grieving now, a year and a half after Michael died.

The singer also discusses the toll of low self-esteem over the decades, even after she’d achieved huge success.

“I would literally bang my head up against the wall because I didn’t feel attractive,” says Jackson. “There was a lot of pain in my life… I felt very unattractive.”

The interview can be seen on “Today” on February 11 and 14, and on “Dateline NBC” on February 13.

An emotional clip in which Jackson discusses her late brother is below.
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Pop singer Janet Jackson says her big brother Michael Jackson used to tease her as a youngster about her bottom, while their other siblings called her a "horse," "pig" and "cow."

In an interview with NBC correspondent Meredith Vieira, on the promotional trail for her memoir, Jackson said the verbal abuse made her insecure about her looks.

"I would literally bang my head up against the wall because I didn't feel attractive," she said. "There was a lot of pain in my life. But I did. I felt very unattractive."
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She used to laugh at the barnyard taunts, and said Michael's comments about her bottom were probably affectionate. But rather than confront him about his hurtful words, she simply internalized the pain.

Jackson, 44, relates her childhood trauma in her book "True You: A Journey to Finding and Loving Yourself," which will be published on Feb. 15.

As with her siblings, Jackson was beaten by her father who forced her to call him by his first name, Joseph. Still she escaped relatively lightly, recalling that she was struck with a belt just once.

"I know my father loves me," she said. "He just has a very, very different way of showing it."

Michael Jackson, almost eight years older than Janet, once tearfully recalled that his father would "tear you up" with a belt or some other convenient cord, and "would throw you up against the wall."

Of her brother, whom she last saw about six weeks before he died in 2009, Jackson said she embarked on the grieving process long after everyone else in the family.

"I don't know if it was trying to shield the pain, or just trying to hold it all together because I saw that everyone else around me was falling apart. And, never -- never taking that moment to really grieve. Really grieve, even at the service [in July 2009]."

But she recently allowed herself to watch his videos and listen to his music during a nightlong session in Paris.

"And, there was moments when I-- I felt the cry, and moments that made me laugh. And, it was good for me. I needed it," she said.

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Human beings worry too much about 'how they look' its the inside of a person that counts. Theres nothing wrong with the way Janet Jackson looks its all in her mind.

Being part of a famous family most likely does put pressure on each of them because 'looking good' or 'not looking good' is picked up and and then diseased everywhere into public but really its a shame that people have to worry about looks or put so much emphasis on it.

Its really time to hug trees and stick two fingers up to society.